Dream Wedding

To prove how more pathetic I am and how little of a life I have, I have already planned out my dream wedding, I know most girls have thought about it or have an idea of what they want, but if that day ever comes, I'm for the most part already set to go, sad, I know. If you have cared to read my previous posts you already have an idea about the guy I want to marry,so that part is covered. Anyways, my wedding colors will be guava and black, I know guava is a very specific colour but there is a story/inside joke behind it. So guava will be the colour of my bridesmaid dresses, and black the colour of suits/tuxes the groomsmen??usher?? whatever the hell you call them, you get the idea. I will have pink lilies, and most likely white roses (i can't have black flowers for obvious reasons I'm sure ) For the reception, I will have chairs with the white sheet things over them or something that make them look fancy, you know what I mean?, with a guava bow tied around each, as well as black table cloths, and guava place settings, as well as pink Lillis in black vases as a center piece, and those cloths that you put around the forks and knives will be alternative guava and black, as well around the cloth holding the forks and knives will have a thing saying "marriage can be messy" , I saw that on 'say yes to the dress' , and yes i watch that show, I've watched to much of it in the past little while, just goes to show how much more pathetic i am. I will have a three or four teerd white cake, with some kind of design using guava and black, and the little bride and groom on top :)..there's alot more but  I'm tired of describing my dream wedding to people who don' t even care, if anyone reads this.. soo ya

Say Anything

One of my favourite parts about blogging, is that you can say absolutley anything you want, you could pour your heart out, just let out all of your emotions, anger,fear,sadness,happiness,ect. You can type anything at all, and no one will ever know who it is, if you want it that way, and don't tell anyone about your blog.  On your blog, you could right your deepest darkest secrets, maybe even secrets you sometimes keep from yourself. It's like writing in a diary, but on the internet, where anyone can see if they want, but there is still a secrecy, because they don't know who is behind it all, unless, of course you tell people to look at your blog or something, but I like the way my blog situation is right now, only my best friend knows about it, and the only one who needs to know. Anyways, this is why I created a blog, well that, and I have no life , so much so that I don't even have anything to blog about, pretty sad if I do say so myself. Whatever.

You Should Know Me By Now ♥

My heart belongs to someone, someone I don't even know, who I may never know. It's completley insane but it's so true. He's famous, if that makes it any less creepy or insane, I bet alot of girls feel this way about him, but not at all the same way I do.  He's all I ever think about..ever. I'm scared that he might never know me, that I'll never be able to even cross his mind if I'm lucky enough, it's just not fair..but i guess thats life..i guess..
I can't even begin to explain how I feel about him. This feeling inside of me thats so strong,is impossible to discribe. Just the thought of him makes me smile, and when I see him I get butterflies,  my heart skips a beat or two, and I can't even think straight.
I love his chocolate brown eyes, his most amazing smile that makes my heart go crazy, I love absolutley everything about him, in my eyes he's perfect. He's everything I've ever wanted and more.
I know I'm way in over my head, and the chances of us being together are slim to none, but I can't change how I feel.
He stole my heart

~On The Outside Looking In ~

I don't belong in my school. Or any other school for that matter. I don't fit in anywhere, or with anyone. Except my best friend. We always stand out from the crowd, but we like being different. Who doesn't ?
I don't understand the people who always want to fit in, why would you want to be like everyone else?
I don't even think that's possible, because everyone is different in their own special way, and they should be proud of who they are. My best friend and I, we belong on stage. We dream about being in a band some day. We already have a band name and I'm learning how to play the guitar. Our band name is No Clue, and we would love if anyone wants to be our fan. I know you guys haven't heard us or anything yet but once we put our first song together we will post it on here and hope you guys like it. Don't laugh. I know it seems kind of silly, but i bet everyone has had this dream before once in there life, and this is our dream and we are sticking to it :) OK you can laugh if you want because all of this sounds extremely pathetic if you ask me, but I don't care, that's why this is my blog and I can type whatever the hell I want :) So ya, you just like completely wasted your time reading about something and someone you don't even care about, if anyone has even read this far, or have read this at all... whatever.